Something they love to do, while they wait for me to get ready, is to weigh themselves on our digital scale. They know to press on the scale, wait till it reads "0.0" and then to stand on it and wait for their weight to be registered.
Even though the girls have no idea what the numbers mean, they take delight in me telling them what the scales says. I always answer,
30.5 pounds (or whatever the numbers read)---a healthy, growing girl!Then, I see their faces explode into a big grin with that news.
On Friday, after the girls weighed themselves, they told me they wanted me to get on the scale.
I took a deep breath.
I realized in that moment, as I was waiting for the "0.0", that my reaction was important. The way I view myself, the way they see me viewing myself is important. My reaction to my numbers on the scale will influence the way they react their numbers on the scale, now, and for years to come.
They would mimic my reaction, just as they mimic me putting on lotion and washing my face.
So, as my numbers registered on the scale, with a big smile, I said,
145.5 pounds---a healthy mama!Smiles all around.
I want to give my daughters the gift of having a mama who can demonstrate what it looks like to love and care for the body God gave me. A mama who truly believes that my worth and value is greater than what I look like, or what the scale says.
That's a tall order in this culture, but I think it's oh so important. I'm reminded of just how important each time I see my girls pretend to dust their faces with my make-up brush.